the vedas

last year i bought called 'KA' by roberto calasso ,he is a italian writer and the book is all i need to know about the vedas.a few pages later ,i was silent and stopped talking,guess the vedas does this to you,if you have a open mind and heart.prabhu was like ,why are you not talking and why are you so silent.literally after each sentence or para there was some research to be done and automatically you start contemplating.you cannot read it like a fiction book and throw it away when done.the words and thoughts impregnated in you like needles making small and permanent impacts.so what about all those brahmins who have read the vedas,no wonder they were considered above ,but there is also a but ,if your mind is closed no matter what you read ,it is just another book .
in conclusion i stopped reading after a few pages,since my family needed a talking working parrot,until now ,i remembered ,guess it is the right time to begin again.

WORTHINESS

I don't think about worthiness
I don't think about ideals
only thing i am worried is
how to live this
love less life
I tried not to think about it
and led a
happy existence
this void kills me
life is a white suffocating box
I think of means of killing this loneliness
and left no stone unturned
I love to hear talk and
to be happy
that is a simple wish
to get that i don't mind tearing and feeding flesh to the vultures

VULTURES

why do u tear your heart
into a million pieces
just to feed the vultures
Do vultures know the difference between
a heart ,a brain
All they identify is red meat
Flesh is the smell they know
What love means to them
A word not heard ,a feeling not felt
To give away such a pure heart
so meaninglessly
without reason
just to know pain

THIS COLD WIND COMING THROUGH MY WINDOW
GIVING ME THIS CHILLNESS
THIS NUMBNESS
I HAVE COME TO LIKE IT SO MUCH
IT SOOTHES ME
IT CAJOLES
IT GIVES ME
A NEVER KNOWN HAPPINESS
I ACCEPT IT WHOLE
FEELING ITS STING TO THE MAXIMUM
I HAVE REALLY BEGUN TO LIKE IT SO MUCH

CAN U HEAR

CAN U HEAR THE BUDDA IN U
OPEN UP LISTEN,MEDITATE,
CONTEMPLATE
HE LIVES IN YOU
FIND IT ,FOR THIS IS A BEAUTIFUL LIFE
AND IT IS A GIFT TO LOVE

BUDDA

to understand Budda is a blessing
for many live their lives a marathon
and some sprint
and some live a hundred mile race

But to understand ,to slow
down to be tempered
to understand life, at a miniscule of it,in itself is a blessing

my soap bubble

my life has been a soap bubble for the past three days
so full of myriad colours
so dream like .
It was soft and cool
and safe inside
so comforting
and full of love .
And then it broke..
and i could'nt bear the pain
So immense was the pain
that i set out to search for it
little knowing it had evaporated from the
face of earth
leaving a thin residue of soap
then i started creating
look alikes of my bubble


but could not match nor even come close
i spent my days brooding
over my burst bubble
its dreams
its colours
so beautiful
that it never

vanished from my mind
My search goes on ..foolish me ..
never realising
that there is none
like the other